Here I am a rabbit hearted girl

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 11:00:50 GMT

College life has taken me over! This past week was my most stressful week so far. I haven't really had the chance to spend much time with my friends... hometown or even college peeps. However, things are finally starting to mellow out now and I can finally venture out beyond campus without worrying about all the workload that I have to do when I get back. I even got the chance to go to stroll by the beach today~

Anyways, here is a meme that has been floating around. Good way to catch up on my life!

You know how sometimes people on your friends list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out. (:

1. FIRST NAME

My first full name is supposed April-Anne--- yes, with a dash in the middle. To be honest, I no longer remember who gave me my first name or how it was shortened to "April". I think my dad messed up when he wrote down my name or something. I'm not exactly sure. I also have a Vietnamese name which is Le Chi Hoang Ho... which is a combination of my parents' last names. I've never used it... except as a username for my myspace.

2. AGE

I'm currently 18 years old and will be 19 next April. I'm currently in limbo between feeling too old and too young. I have yet to find a middle ground.

3. LOCATION

As of right now I'm currently dorming on campus at UCLA in Los Angeles, CA. I'm supposedly in the dorm with the worst conditions. The rooms are old. The paint peels. The elevators never work properly. Our doors always get stuck. But heck, everyone that lives here loves it (well... except for some). I personally love it because there is usually something always going on down the hall of my floor. The only thing I dislike about it is that the building is closest to South campus... and I'm a North campus major. The. Walk. To. Class. Is. Always. So. Freaking. FAR.

Anyways, the weather down is typical of Los Angeles. Sunny and temperamental. Sometimes it likes to rain on the most random of days. But in general it's really nice.

My hometown is Norwalk, California. I used to think Norwalk was nothing special, but now... sometimes I miss it so much.

4. OCCUPATION

I am a college student. A very poor one indeed.

5. PARTNER?

None. I never had a boyfriend ever in my life. For some reason this fact surprises people... even my own relatives. :| (People and their expectations tsk tsk.)

But really in all seriousness... I just never had one. But being single doesn't bother me at all. It's fun. ♥ I know that there have been people who have tried to convince me that being in a relationship is great and that you'll always have somebody to talk to and la la la---- I honestly don't care.

6. KIDS?

I don't have kids, but I'm not really fond of children in general... or rather I'm not fond of taking care of them. I attract kids like a magnet though... or like bees to honey or something. My best friend says it's because I'm always too nice and I play with kids all the time.

~~So okay... maybe kids are cute. Just for the first hour or so though.~~

7. BROTHERS/SISTERS

I have two siblings. First, I have an older half-sister who is 10 years older than me. She's a halfie--- part Vietnamese and part Caucasian. She doesn't live here in California, so I don't really get the chance to see her. But she's really cool and sweet. Everyone loves her.

Second, I have a younger brother, Austin, who is now 12 years old! He's annoying, but is my little brother nonetheless.

It's weird to say this, but I am neither very close to either of them. It doesn't mean that I don't love them any less, but I can't really tell them about personal things... which is unfortunate in a way. Growing up I never really had anybody to talk to about my emotions or problems that I'm going through, which is probably why I've always been so insecure and unsure about myself.

8. PETS

I have way too many pets a home. I basically have a zoo in my backyard. But some pets that do stand out are of course: Pocket (Yorkshire terrier), Pumpkin (ferret), Pudding (albino ferret), Reira (rabbit), and Russel (Pomeranian and Chihuahua mix).

9. LIST THE 3/5 BIGGEST THINGS GOING ON IN YOUR LIFE

1. College.
2. Thanksgiving/Wedding.
3. Uh. Friends/people?

10. PARENTS

I have mom and a dad who have been married... for quite a long time lol. I don't exactly remember. Both of my parents are Vietnamese and Vietnamese parents equal your typical strict asian parents. However! They are also are very weird and quirky... and in nature they are very generous... (at least to their own kind. x:) My parents really tried to give me the best of everything when I was younger. As a result, I was kind of a spoiled brat. Wait, not kind of. I was a spoiled brat and I'm still spoiled today! Haha!

So about my mom. I think I was born with my mom's personality. Stubborn. Fiery. Forceful. Manipulative. I think this is the reason why we clash SO MUCH. All the time and every time. We are always bitching at each other that it scares people. But I admit, I think out of everyone, I think she understands me the most. I think sometimes she gets a little worried because I am so much like her. Maybe not. I'm not sure. I really look up to my mom though because despite her stubborn and strict personality... she's a really classy lady with a really big heart.

My dad lol. He's hilarious. I look the most like him and I am also very lazy like him. Whenever mom gets in a fit, dad and I always run to each other. I'm not exactly the child that my dad wanted... I was suppose to be born a boy (since he already had a girl a.k.a my half-sister). But dad really loves me and he always does his best for me. ♥ I'm really thankful for him.

Sometimes I feel bad because I make my parents worry about me too much. After all, I am their first child to "grow up". They are really scared for my future... knowing that I will be majoring in design (an artsy major yikes?!?) in tough economic times. But they still support me, which I am really thankful for. For them, I will do my best.

11. WHO ARE SOME OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS?

My closest friends. Haha. I don't even know where to start! I'm a very lucky girl to have really good friends that I have known for over 7 years! We really have been through so much together... and it's amazing how even though now we are in college.... we are still holding on. My friends mean the world to me and I love them from the bottom of my heart. I would do anything for them and I would never trade them for anyone/anything else in the world.

Sorry for the typos! I'm up pretty late tonight.

I'm sorry I'm not really on LJ anymore, but if you need me... I'll be on facebook! So please add me if you haven't already!

Also... this is also a good time to defriend me if you feel that we don't connect anymore. No hard feelings. I really understand that's it unfair to you that I'm not really on anymore.

See you around cuties! <3

Halloween 2009

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 07:59:11 GMT

Things have been so hectic for the past couple of weeks. I just got done with midterms last week, so I finally have a lot more free time. However, I'm still behind on work... especially for my history and drawing class. I have drawings to finish, a research paper to start, critical responses to write... yikes! I will get them done soon though. I'm so sad though because I haven't had time to spend time with some of my college friends... even though they are right here on campus with me!

So I came home this weekend for Halloween. It was my little brother's birthday party (he's twelves now! I got him a UCLA t-shirt as gift), but afterward I also left to Jonathan's family Halloween party. It was really fun! Here are some pictures of me Saturday:

I was Minnie Mouse for Halloween! My cousin Kristen was Hello Kitty.

My little brother did his first pumpkin carving this year with the help of my cousins, Kristen and James. He was really excited.

We made a triforce pumpkin... LOL.

MY DAD. Omg!

And then... MY MOM. ROFL.

Then at Jonathan's party...

My good friend Vanessa! She was a goddess. Isn't she so pretty? She currently attends Cal State Bakersfield! I miss her a lot. ):

My best friend Chayo (Rosario) who was a kitty cat! Poor girl got glow stick liquid in her eye... so it was hard for her to take pictures.

Haha! A group picture on Jonathan's chair, which was quite comfy.

I came back home early so I could be at the end of my little brother's party. So I took some funny piccies with cousin James. <3

The End!

I miss everyone so much! I hope you all are doing well. I'm sorry that I cannot update as often. D: If you have a facebook, don't forget to add me! I'm always on lol.

Ooh! And for you high school seniors on my F-list~ good luck with college apps! It's finally that time of month when you have to start working! Haha~

Love you all! <3

Move-in Day. First year.

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 03:31:29 GMT

Early this morning, mom came to my bed to sleep with me for a little bit. She hugged me, but she kept tossing and turning so I was having a hard time trying to sleep.

And then she started to cry.
I didn't know what was going on so I asked her if she was alright. Instead she started to cry even louder and couldn't even face me. So I just snuggled up to her, gave her a big hug, and cried a little bit with her too.

Mom, I love you.
Even though we are not very far away, I know things will be a little different.
But I'll be okay.
I'll use your courage to let me go and become a strong and beautiful woman as you.
I wonder about the day when I will feel the same as you.

--------

Anyways, I moved in! [: here pics of my side of the room.

(I'm on LJ).

I should be out doing something now, but for some reason I'm not. lol.

A trace of courage.

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 07:35:52 GMT

Yesterday I invited Chayo and Jonathan to Skate Depot for roller skating. It was a lot of fun, except that I'm a very bad roller skater (yet I'm the one who has been a figure ice skater for 10 years). I fell down a lot and once accidentally a kid toppled over me when I was on the floor. Then there was this other time when I was feeling a little bit too confident and I feel really hard on my side. I have this gigantic blue and purple bruise on my thigh now... it looks just like the inside of a purple sweet potato. I can't sleep on my left side now because it's too painful.

I almost finished packing for move-in day. I was starting to feel a little sad when I was rolling up my clothes. I'm going to miss my raspberry pink room and I'm going to miss Pocket waiting for me to wake up in the morning. But my older cousin (who is a UCLA alumn!) sent me message saying that I won't miss a thing. XD (In a way, I know that she's right.)

Anyways, as I was packing, I found this piece of magic in my room. It's a quote that I ripped out from a Starbucks cup a long time ago when I was hanging with my friends. I had forgotten why it stood out to me and now I'm glad that I found it again... just in time!

Why are we inspired by another person's courage? Maybe because it gives us the sweet and genuine surprise of discovering some trace, at least, of the same courage in ourselves.
-- Laurence Shames

I'm off to bed now. Have to buy some last minute things for Saturday in the morning~

Drop (Do it again)

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 05:51:13 GMT

Forever 21 Necklace // Rose, Chains, Trinkets
Originally uploaded by fairyglamour

Being in childhood-adulthood limbo is very tedious, so I went out shopping again in the afternoon before I had to go to pick up my little brother from school. I got some nice things and everything was under $10! I got this necklace here from Forever 21 that I really love. I don't understand why I have been into jewelry lately! I rarely wear jewelry so I don't know why I keep wanting to buy them. Maybe it's because they are releasing such cute things these days.

I also got myself a cute new pair of shoes (which I will post later), new black stockings/tights, and false eyelashes (for fun!).

Finally, I am in love with this song and this video!

I'm sorry that I haven't posted anything really interesting lately, just things I've bought. Good luck in school everyone! I know almost everyone on my f-list is working hard in school or at work. I'll be here, rooting in limbo for you. ♥

Good Feeling Sunday

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 07:03:19 GMT

My cousin Kristen sent me this video to my gmail!

I do not know why I waited until 12:00AM to post this, but I hope this made you smile just as much as I did. (:

I finished shopping for my dorm today. It got me so nervous! I can't believe I'm moving in this Saturday.

Braided Headband

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 03:07:36 GMT

Today I went shopping with Jonathan at Cerritos Mall. We saw a lot of our friends from high school working at some of the stores there! It was a nice treat to see them again before I leave. ♥

Anyways, I bought myself some new sandals and this braided headband that I just love! It's synthetic hair so it's unnaturally shiny, but it the color matches with my hair pretty well... more than I expected.

I really love this headband (though I wish the braid was a little smaller). It adds a nice romantic or boho touch to whatever style you put your hair in. I personally like it when I have my hair up in a messy bun as in the first picture.

When I was at mall, I also wanted this beaded turtle hair clip at this Native American themed store. I wasn't sure how to wear it because I don't wear clips often so I didn't buy it. But I think next time that I will go buy it because it was on sale. The originally price of it was $25 but then it went down to $7!

9/11 Memorial Concert

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 07:01:11 GMT

Today I went to a 9/11 Memorial Symphonic Concert at Cerritos Heritage Park with my friends: Chayo, Jonathan, and Joseph. I didn't realize that today was 9/11... nor did I realize that I was going to a concert because Chayo told me that we were going to a picnic! But it was a concert by the Cerritos College symphonic winds, so it was really nice although they had rocky start. I had lots of fun catching up with my friends and rolling around on Jonathan's sleeping bag blanket.

After the concert was over, Jonathan zipped me up in the sleeping bag! It was so funny because I would walk around and wave my arms. Little kids came over to look at me and parents were making comments like "That's Sleeping Bag Man!". There was this one kid who actually tried to hug me, but I accidentally fell and I took him down with me. ^^;

After my sleeping bag fun, we went up to meet with the band since we know a lot of the members and the conductor. Some of the park staff were yelling at us because the area was closed, but we didn't care and went up to meet them anyway. I met this weird Asian guy there who kept forgetting my name and touching my shoulder. He was really strange, but my friend Luis told me that he was weird in general.

Then we left the park to get Golden Spoon at Cerritos Towne Center. We originally wanted Cold Stone, but they moved locations. ): I got coconut frozen yogurt, with rainbow caps and caramel sauce. Yum. ♥

Tomorrow Jonathan is taking me to the mall to go shopping with him. I haven't been at the mall in awhile so I hope to buy some things. I'm on the look out for chunky necklaces and new stockings for Fall/Winter. I love the Fall/Winter season! My kinds of clothes!

Oh oh, I also now have my own laptop! My mom still hasn't been given back my internet on my own computer so I can't make graphics really, but I'm really enjoying having the freedom to go online with this thing. I have to move my music over here and some graphics. I already have my Photoshop 7.0.1 installed, although I should really invest in Photoshop CS (?) like everyone has.

I can't believe I'm using 7 year old software to edit my photographs and create my digital art. It's still good though... even my friend April who is a creative GENIUS was surprised at how clean my lines are in 7.0.1.

I forgot, then I am reminded.

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 06:07:57 GMT

Thank you for the advice on my last entry. ♥
I went through almost all my old entries today. When I was reading them, I realized that most of the entries centered around my junior and senior year... which are both of my favorite years in high school. So for a majority of them I couldn't bring myself to delete them because I was laughing or smiling at all the different events that had happened to me. Embarrassing as they were, they made me feel good on the inside because I would remember the fun I had at the time. I did private entries that I found were too embarrassing, but felt like it was time to delete them just yet. I did delete entries that I felt were extremely irrelevant to me and I honestly feel a lot better that they are now gone.

Something that I found interesting was looking at the pictures that I had posted. Especially of the ones of me, I look different now! My features haven't really changed, but it's interesting to see the subtle changes that I made. Another thing that I saw was the change in how I wrote my entries. My older ones were are more "excited" and filled with emoticons. However, the entries this year are bit longer and I talk a lot more about my feelings. Interesting right?

I'll finish up going through my entries tomorrow. <3

So today I went to my grandma's house to pick the mini fridge that I will be bringing with me to UCLA. I'm a little mad at the fridge though because it punctured a hole in my car seat. ): But I am moving into UCLA next Saturday! So insane! I'm going to be a college girl. I'm going to be taking three classes this first quarter: Design Culture, Drawing, and History of... Southeastern Crossroads lol. I'm a little scared for drawing...since I can't draw. ;; I wish they gave me Color class instead of Drawing, but I have to wait until the next quarter.

I watched The Vampire Diaries today~ haha. I want to read the books though since it sounds interesting.

I've been listening to Pink all day!

Happy Labor Day!

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 06:51:00 GMT

Happy Labor Day to those who celebrate it. My family had a BBQ with ribs, hamburgers, and hot dogs. Very American for my little Vietnamese family.

I'm not doing anything right now, except for listening to some music and scrolling through my f-list. However, I've been thinking of things again. (I'm over thinking too much these days). So like, I was wondering about whether or not I should delete all my entries in this journal. For some reason I feel like erasing them all and starting a new, and this is really weird because I'm a little bit against deleting my blog entries. I always feel that I should not forget the good and the bad things that have happened to me, that is how I learn to move on and to not regret.

But I will probably going to go back again and just delete entries that I don't like. I have the urge to do so. Maybe it's because I've been feeling so unhappy and empty lately lol. I need to do something. Sorry for rambling so much this week.

Mmmm. ♥
I love you all. Everyone single one of you.
To me you are all my shining stars, blinking brightly in the sky.
Thanks for always being light and guiding my way during this time. ♥

Hofu...hofu...tofu? ___?

Mon, 07 Sep 2009 07:39:05 GMT

Ahhhh this is adorable. I love how he smiles after he says tofu.

Alright enough of this bomb diggory <--- (what?).
Yesterday I went to the South Coast Plaza with my cousins. ♥ We all saw the movie Extra which was annoyingly funny. Really, there are some parts of the movie that were really annoying... but then they pulled it all together at the end to make it hilarious! It made me feel good afterward.

I'm finally starting to talk with my mom again. When we went to Redondo Beach today (which was CROWDED) I had the courage to ask her for quarters to play the crane machine. XD

Oh, and I'm so addicted to playing the crane machine! It's been my hobby this whole summer. I've gotten pretty good at it and I usually get the stuffed animal that I want on my first try. However, the ones at Redondo were a little rigged though (because the cranes are small and weak and they put in the bean filled toys which are heavy), but I guess it made it a little more challenging. I was able get a cute little black cat toy from the machine. I'm giving it to Pocket. :3

I love crane machines... mmmmm.

Now I'm going to read everyone's entries!

Animated Moonlight

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 07:28:52 GMT

There is a full moon outside right now and it's so pretty!
I walked out to my backyard and the moon was right above my house.
So all the natural light lit up my backyard. ♥
I felt like the last unicorn on her last night in the forest before she leaves on her journey. <3

...

Speaking of The Last Unicorn, here is the opening to the movie which I love~

Also, since I'm talking about animated films... I'm too excited for Disney's Rapunzel!

Oh Disney! Please release a trailer soon for Rapunzel is one of my favorite fairy tales!

(P.S I can't wait to watch 9 and Alice in Wonderland. I love Tim Burton!)

a beautiful name

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 08:18:10 GMT

It's officially September and I admit that I am a little bummed about it. I realized that this summer was not the "dream summer" that I had in mind back in June. I was reading a couple of ending entries in my drama journal and on my very last entry I wrote about how I was so excited for summer. I wrote about how I wanted to find new ways to inspire me and how I wanted to read all these different books. The only book I read this summer was Wasteland and inspiring things...? Nothing that kept my interest for more than a week.

I realized that in these past couples of months I have been very impulsive and emotional. I've been throwing away my own advice and oddly I do not feel regretful or guilty about it (like I usually do). It's a weird feeling that saddens me, but also makes me feel really angry too. Confusion perhaps. Earlier in the week, I was talking to my friend Sue and she told me that perhaps all this negative energy is because I will soon be leaving to college. And I was thinking that it might be true because in my own past experience before a life changing moment, I would go through a long period of... well bad or negative things. But usually after that, lots of really good and amazing things would come out of it. Idk though.

Anyways... last Friday, my friends and I were able to see Hugo on his last day before he went to New York. However, since I knew my parents have been upset with me, I sort of ran away from home to go meet up with them. Dad was really worried and he called me a couple of times during the night, but I ignored all his calls. ^^; I did call him once to tell him that I was okay, but I never left him my location or anything. I was too concerned about being with my friends since it would be the last time being all together with Hugo. When we finally had to say goodbye, I couldn't help but cry even though Hugo kept telling me not to, lmao. (I miss him already. D:)

In other news, I took some random pictures today for fun. They aren't meant to be pretty. D: It's been really hot here in California, but the late afternoons have been so nice. I call these pictures me "Running to the Sun" pictures. Actually, I'm running around in my driveway/front yard and not to the sun. D:

I love this one 'cause I look like I'm high in the air. The ice skater in me kicks in.

Bad picture, but it reminds me of basketball. lol.

Hee hee. Pocket playing with my converse.

I have the chubbiest legs. It makes me so sad. And LOL my face, despite the fact I like this shot. Not very pleasing.

Since I can't really go online as often anymore, I've been listening to A LOT of music. I finally got around to Imogen Heap's new album Ellipse. It's pretty, but not my favorite album (which makes me sad... I say that a lot now huh?). Also after many years, I'm back into Alice Nine again (when was the last time I spoke of them?).

For some reason I find Asian boys to be cute again. Shocking. D:

Oh and I'm also listening to a lot of Black Eye Peas. They have been my soundtrack for this summer. lol.

P.S Sorry for typos. I'm sleeeeepy.
And crazy for Alice Nine.

Hugo's Surprise Going Away Party.

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 07:47:44 GMT

I'm back from Montana! The wedding was very lovely and my sister was so beautiful. I had a nice time up there. I will be posting pictures up later when I get my internet back since I'm grounded (how did I get grounded when I am 18 years old? I must love my parents too much).

Btw, I apologize for the typos in this post. It's dark and I can't see my brother's keyboard.

So I'll talk about yesterday. I threw a surprise going away party for one of my best friends, Hugo. He's leaving to New York this Saturday because he will be attending New York University! Isn't that exciting?

The party was held in my backyard. I set up a long table so everybody could sit down and set up nice cushion chairs in the patio. For dinner we had Church's fried chicken and pizza! XD Also summer watermelons and grapes. Yummy. Before the actual party started, I also strung up wedding balloons (I couldn't find plain ones at the 99 cents store) with the help of some of my friends.

As for the actual surprise, it actually ended in a flop. When I brought Hugo in, everyone didn't see him come in and everyone sort of came out late one by one yelling "surprise!" at different times lol. But the rest of the nice was good. During dinner, we decided to roast Hugo. Not toast, roast him! Roasting means you insult the person, but the compliment him after. A true compliment of course. My friends and I successfully roasted Hugo at least once, but for some reason we ended up roasting each other instead. It was like an inferno! Of laughter.

After dinner, I put on some school video projects that he was in. The first was Lakisha, a old video we made for Spanish 2 class in Sophomore year. Then I put in Black Rabbit Murderer 2 which we made back in 11th grade for AP US History. Here it is again for those who don't remember:

Hugo is the sarcastic one with the 7-Up can.

After the videos, I put up a slideshow I created for him. It was awesome and had Black Eye Peas goodness for background music. I've Got a Feeling was the theme song for the night.

When the slideshow was over, we went out to the background to play a game called Touch Someone. It's a really sweet game that Chayo and Joseph learned at their Orientation at UCI. First, everyone sits on the ground in a circle. You have to make sure you sit facing outward of the circle and that you are not too close to anybody next to you. Everyone also must close their eyes and keep it closed the entire time. Then there is one person who is a narrator who picks a couple of people to stand up. When the narrator gives an instruction, the people standing up must touch someone (and you can touch more than one person) that applies to that instruction. For example, the narrator would say "Touch someone who made you smile today" and the people standing would go around to touch people who made them smile today. The games continues endlessly like that. After several questions, the narrator could also choose to switch the standing people to go around and touch others too. In our game we had a total of nine people, so we had two people standing.

Although the game sounds a little cheesy, it is a really sweet game that shows how we all touch each other in someway whether it is positive or negative. It's really effective when you don't know who is standing up, that's tapping you on the head or poking you in the back. Every little tap feels like a heartbeat telling you that they are there with you.

Some of my favorites that really surprised me since I didn't expect to get touched for were "Touch someone that has a beautiful personality" and "Touch someone who is talented but doesn't get enough credit for". Those were really sweet~ and another one that was cute was "Touch someone who you would dodge a bullet for".

There was at one point where I was about to tear up a little. I think it was "Touch someone who you would never want to forget". That oddly made me feel very loved and warm on the inside. So thank you to whoever two touched me for that!

I also got the chance on the second round to touch people. One of them was "Touch someone who you love to hate" and I decided to run around and smack most of my friends on the back for the heck of it. I know smacked Jonathan really really hard on his back and he yelled out in pain, "That has to be an April smack!"

When the game was over everyone left except for Hugo and Chayo. So we spent the next couple of hours outside talking, playing the gameboard LIFE, and listening to some music until they had to leave.

For gifts, we created a poster for Hugo to post on his dorm wall at NYU and also a pop-up sex book to bring along. I actually really like the pop-up sex book since the illustrations are really colorful and had a lot of care to them. And I'm speaking about this in an artistic perspective. The book was very tasteful! Even my friends who would cringe at the sight of it thought it was a really nice book. It even has gold lettering on the cover.

So that was Hugo's going away party. I'm going to really miss him. I'm going to miss his sarcasm and wit... his perverted drawings and the way he insults people... gonna miss his funny hair and how he laughs like a hyena. Lol. I'll see him again this Friday when I sneak out of the house to go to Penguin's BBQ.

I can't believe he's leaving. :/

Leaving to my sister's wedding

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 03:45:51 GMT

Tomorrow I leaving to Montana for my sister's wedding. I love Montana so much! I wish I could stay there for the whole week instead of just the weekend. My outfits are all ready and so is my camera.

I'm still looking for readings for the wedding (oops). So far I found this one which I think is cute and so fitting for my sister:

Is there anything more beautiful in life than a young couple clasping hands and pure hearts in the path of marriage? Can there be anything more beautiful than young love?' And the answer is given: ‘Yes, there is a more beautiful thing. It is the spectacle of an old man and an old woman finishing their journey together on that path. Their hands are gnarled but still clasped; their faces are seamed but still radiant; their hearts are physically bowed and tired but still strong with love and devotion. Yes, there is a more beautiful thing than young love. Old love.

Cute right? I wish I could read her a Franceaca Lia Block reading... but I don't know anything that's appropriate. Maybe my monologue? I don't know. I'll figure out something out soon. :/

My legs still hurt from Downtown L.A // Meme

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 06:23:18 GMT

The past two days have been crazy and insaely fun! On Friday I went to Downtown Los Angeles with my friends. We went to Chinatown, Little Tokyo, and walk down Hollywood Blvd (ALL of Hollywood Blvd. D:) I got a new tote bag with bunnies all over it from a stall in Chinatown. It was my first time bargaining... and I felt so confident in an odd way. Then in Little Tokyo I got myself a new Japanese mascara that was on sell in Marukai Market. It's now one of my favorite mascaras. :D I wish I could show you all pictures of the trip, but as I said before, I no longer have my little digital camera. D: Hopefully when Chayo uploads her pictures, I can show you some of the things we did.

Then yesterday I went to my friend Johana's going away party. She will be leaving to UC Berkeley in a week! I'm going to miss her a lot. But the party was really fun and I danced my sandals off to banda music all night. I also learned to dance merengue. Good stuff.

Now today I went to Cerritos Mall to try to find a dress for my sister's wedding this weekend. I found absolutely nothing. However, I did fall in love with this necklace that I found at Forever 21.

Sorry for my puffy face. Anyways, it was the last necklace of this kind that was there so I had to buy it!

Oh, btw. I need some readings for my sister's wedding. D: Does anybody have any poems/lyrics/passages about love/commitment/growing old that they could recommend to me?. Love-dovey stuff is not my forte, so I need help.

Finally a meme from angellhy

❤ Leave me a comment saying "Questions!"
❤ I'll respond by asking you five questions so i can get to know you better.
❤ Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
❤ Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions

(I'm not sure if I have time to do questions as of now. :'D But go ahead and comment anyway and I'll try.)

1. Do you have any pet peeves? If so, what are they?
Yes I do, but I can't think of them right now. My mind just went blank.

2. If your life was an anime/game/manga, what genre would it be?
Oh my gosh. Well, I think it would be some weird mish-mosh of magical girl, fantasy, and darkness. However, it still has a lot of traditional elements in it. Something a little bit experiemental and artistic, that really doesn't define a single genre and almost screws your mind. I think that would be perfect.

3. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?
Italy! I love it so much over there. But actually I would rather visit Italy than live there. Maybe for a year just to try. I'm actually quite happy here in the United States as of right now.

4. What is your favourite candy?
I really love chocolate. I love chocolate so much, that I actually lie to other people that I don't like chocolate. Dark chocolate and semi-sweet chocolate are my top favorites. Sometimes when I'm bored, I like to snack on semi-sweet chocolate chips that I use for baking cookies. However, I don't really like candy bars very much since they are usually made in milk chocolate.

5. Lol, if you where a sailor scout, which planet would you represent? xD
HEE. I would say Mars because that would make me Sailor Mars, but I don't think the fire element truly represents me. So for now I'm going to say the Moon (even though it's not a planet) because I like the whole princess theme and heart theme. Maybe Saturn because Saturn was my most favorite planet when I was a child.

I've been thinking about starting a new blog (not on Livejournal). I want it to be a photography and fashion related blog. I'm currently searching around for a blog host. Maybe WordPress, but I don't know how to make layouts on it. u_u I tried once when I still had Skywound but I failed miserably. Lmao.

The Joy of Pudding!

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 05:11:19 GMT

This my new bebe that I picked when we were returning from Las Vegas. Her name is Pudding and she is 2 months old. ♥ She is really sweet and extremely playful. Pocket loves her and Pumpkin has kindly accepted her. Her fur is really soft and I love cuddling her in my arms.

It's really funny how different Pumpkin and Pudding are other than their difference in fur color and gender. Pudding is such a girl. She feels really comfortable being held and she LOVES LOVES stuffed animals! Everytime we let her loose in the house, she will always have my stuffed monkey or my little brother's stuffed horse in her mouth. She really likes it when others play with her.

Pumpkin is a different story. He is a lot more independent and doesn't care whether or not if we play with him. He always finds a way to entertain himself. Rather than "playing", he loves to explore new places and to find holes. He's also quite aggressive.

Pumpkin and Pudding are also on opposite sleeping schedules. For some reason, Pudding is more active at night while Pumpkin is more active during the day. So whenever I want to bring them into the house to play, I can only bring one in because the other is sleeping.

Also, Pudding is really big and fat. Dad is a bit confused about how tiny and scrawny Pumpkin is since he's older and is a male. (Females are supposed to be smaller). Mom think it's because Pudding has baby fat. I don't think that's the case though. I think Pudding just came from a big family... or Pumpkin came from a really small one. ^^ Haha.

In other neeeews, the band CDs are in! I have yet to pick up my copy. I really want to see how my cover turned out in print! <3 My band teacher sounds really happy about it though... from the text and Myspace status comment he left.

I look through the art of one of my friends I had met at UCLA. She's in the same major as me... and she's really good! She drawing skills are AMAZING! Honestly, everything in my portfolio pales in comparison. :'D I feel so lame right now. I knew my lack of technique and traditional art skills would bite me in the butt one day. I am going to fail drawing class in the Fall Quarter. ._.

I've been working on the icon requests over at fairycoma. My hand hurts so much from clicking and cropping. CROP CLICK CLICK CLICK CROP CLICK CLICK CLICK RIGHT CLICK = me all day. I'm not used to making over 60 icons in one sitting. D: How in the world do other people mass produce that many icons... and still be able to post like... four times a week?!? How do you guys do it?!? I must have low icon stamina.

"
There goes my stamina guage!

CROP CLICK CLICK CLICK CROP CLICK CLICK CLICK RIGHT CLICK MOUSE BUTTON SMASH.

Zero.

Game Over!

-insert depressing loser quote-
"

Sorry. Couldn't resist.

Home from Orientation and Las Vegas

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 07:13:56 GMT

I just arrived home from Las Vegas! I really missed everyone. I didn't get the chance to update in between because I was so exhausted and I didn't have much time online to myself.

Orientation was a blast and I had a nice time in Las Vegas. I'm not sure if I want to post a large entry, since it will be very long. I had started an entry during Orientation, but I had to get off because I had to leave to a scavenger hunt. I haven't gotten the chance to read everyone else's entries yet... you all posted such long entries! It was hard to keep up in my flist, but I will try my best. I'll try to make a post tomorrow... of Orientation first perhaps.

In other news, I broke my Olympus camera while I was at Orientation. I didn't really *break* it because I never took it out, but I had left it in my bag and I think the weight of my stuff crushed the LCD screen and now it's malfunctioning.

Also, I got some new clothes and shoes while I was in Las Vegas. Vegas has some of the best deals because of the outlet stores! <3 Love it!

And we also got a new family member! We brought home a new ferret that we named Pudding! She's a beige/cream color and she's really sweet. She loves to sleep in our laps. Now Pumpkin and Pocket has a new friend! I'll take pictures to show you the adorable-ness.

Away at UCLA Orientation

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 06:52:34 GMT

Hello everyone!
I'm all better now. My morning disaster turned into a pleasant afternoon/evening. The birthday party was nice and the cake I made was delicious.

Now to more other matters.
I will be gone to my college orientation for the next three days, so I will be on a mini hiatus? Not really.

I'm all packed up. Just need to put bring some make-up and Neosporin because Pocket scratched my chin when she was trying to wake me up this morning.

Be good while I am gone F-list! ♥
I will see you all again on Wednesday, before I leave to Las Vegas. Maybe I'll sneak in some internet time on Tuesday.

Toodles. ♥

Funny Photos and baking a birthday cake

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 06:00:11 GMT

Today I decided to take funny pictures of myself. I didn't want to do anything "artistic", but rather just for fun in whatever I was wearing. I cranked up some electronic music and just made funny faces at the camera lens for an hour. It was extremely therapeutic and made me feel so much better on the inside.

I'm currently baking a birthday cake for my cousin Phillip. It's going to be a dark chocolate cake with a cream cheese mousse filling (similar to Costco's). it's not entirely from scratch, but it's good... if I do it correctly. I might post up the recipie tomorrow and some tips on how to make cake mix better if you would like.

This was a sketch I did as I was sitting on the computer today. I tried to do something to it in Photoshop, but I failed miserably and I ended up with this. I just like the colors.

My Canon 50 mm lens came in this afternoon! I will try to take some shots tomorrow.

[EDIT] I forgot! I'm currently open for requests at my icon community @ fairycoma. The post will be closed tomorrow most likely, so request soon!

Late Night Boredom

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 06:29:07 GMT

First, a meme from angellhy

Comment and I'll LJ stalk you to find three fandoms you apparently love. And then you answer these questions about them!

❶ What got you into this fandom in the first place?
❷ Do you think you'll stay in this fandom or eventually move on?
❸ Favorite episodes/books/movies/etc?
❹ Do you participate in this fandom (fanfiction, graphics, discussions)?
❺ Do you think that more people should get into this fandom

I got Planetarian, Neon Genesis Evangelion, and Sailor Moon.

PLANETARIAN
1) Kanon and Air. Then I knew about Planetarian after researching about the visual novels that KEY has made. ~~Then I found someone that uploaded the novel. So I downloaded and played it.~~ I also listened to the first light novel.
2) Planetarian is not the best of the best, but it has a special place in my heart. Technically, I've already moved on (following other KEY things), but it doesn't mean that I don't love it any less.
3) Well, it's a novel so I guess I'll say my favorite part. My most favorite is when Yumemi is talking about the stars. OH AND THE ENDING. It breaks my heart and makes me love the main character so much.
4) Planetarian doesn't really have big fanbase... at least on my side of the world. I've done some graphics, but there was a time when I RPed as Yumemi in an Harvest Moon RP. ~~HAHAHA I LOVE HARVEST MOON~~. It was really fun... surprisingly. -weeabo-
5) Could always use more, to at least play the visual novel. The story is really sweet. ♥ And heartbreaking too.

NEON GENSIS EVANGELION
1) I knew it from a very long time ago, but I was only able to watch it recently. I kept putting it off. XD
2) NGE screwed with my mind so badly, I don't think I could ever forget it. I like it. A lot. It's a classic.
3) Ummm I don't know. I like the impact NGE as a whole rather than individual scenes/parts. My favorite character is Asuka, of course. Although I do find Rei to be the sexier character. She just lacks a personality (not her fault though). There are some great scenes in the movie with Asuka in it that I really like. I especially like it when snaps back to reality and gets gun-ho against the other evas. That was awesome. 8D
4) Not really. I made a couple icons for myself and that's it.
5) If they want to. NGE is immortal. 8D

SAILOR MOON
1) Everyone has their favorite cartoon from when they were younger. Mine happened to be Sailor Moon. I watched it dubbed in English and I thought it was the coolest thing ever. I thought Tuxedo Mask/Darien was so hot. I had to be his Sailor Moon, so I would always tie my hair up in pig-tails. I also used to have long hair that reached below my butt, so I felt that I made a very convincing Usagi (or Serena as I had known her then).
2) Stay forever.
3) Idk! I can't pick. Well, one of my favorite movies is Sailor Moon S where Luna turns into a human and falls in love! It's very sweet and the movie is winter themed. OH OH OH. I remember now. In Volume 2 in the manga, there is this one short scene where Darien reveals that he is Tuxedo Mask to Usagi. Then there is this one panel where they just stare at each other and omg it gives me butterflies. Oh and my favorite scout is Rei Hino/Sailor Mars if that wasn't already obvious. Sailor Moon was my favorite when I was younger since I didn't really know about any of the other scouts.
4) Icons, buying Sailor Moon merchandise, loving it a lot, etc. Uh-huh. I've never really participated in online discussions 'cause I never bothered. Ummm... I have a Sailor Mercury and Black Lady dolls. I have yet to find one of Sailor Mars.
5) Yes. It's classic! Why not?

Whew. That was fun.

Sooo... I wanted to show everyone the CD cover that I made for my high school band.

Not too shabby right? I personally don't like it, but at least it is almost presentable. The pictures are of my band teacher's father since the CD is dedicated to him. It's going to look better when it's printed out. I hope.

And because it is late at night and I feel a little crazy.

Here is Sailor Mars henshin sequence in Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon a.k.a live action Sailor Moon. It makes me laugh.

Near the End of July

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 06:58:39 GMT

Hello everyone. ♥ I feel like I have been gone forever.

Since I my last entry, I haven't felt any different. I still feel the same or rather nothing at all. Actually, I've been very busy so my mind has been wondering about the place. I told you that when August comes I'll be busy again!

So what's new... I don't even now where to begin. Chayo came home, Orange County Fair, volunteering at the Health Fair for Janet Ngyuen...

My band teacher asked me to make the covers for the CDs this year. I'm really excited to see them come out. I hope everybody likes it. ♥ It's really nice that now more people IRL know that I do graphics and stuff. I feel really honored when they ask me to create things for them because they know that I can. I'll show the cover later. ♥

Did I mention Chayo came home? I'm really happy that she's back. I was able to see most of my friends from school last week and I haven't seen them in awhile. It feels so good to be with them again. Now we are planning on a trip to go to Downtown L.A in two weeks! I'm so excited!

I'm also addicted to this MMORPG called Perfect World. I play with my little brother and cousin. Usually I don't play alot of MMORPGs, but I happen to be really fond of this one. Good stuff.

Next week is my Orientation and I will be staying at UCLA for three days. After that I will be leaving to Las Vegas for another three days with my family and cousins. Gah. So excited.

I don't know what else to share, so I hope everyone is doing well and having a good week.

May tomorrow I'll go shopping... I need a new light sweater.

lost in a silent ballet

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 20:43:18 GMT

These days I don't feel very happy with myself. I feel very uncomfortable and confused as if I was missing something important. I am very critical of myself and I hate that because it shouldn't be that. I don't like my nails, my hair, my body, the things I write, the things I create. Maybe I'm getting sick again or maybe it's just one of those days where I feel a little lost.

I'm trying to find ways of cheering myself up, like taking photographs. However, I still feel unhappy which worries me because I usually feel a little better about myself. I'm trying to listen to music, but instead that just makes me feel even sadder.

"I like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly"
"Fireflies" by Owl City

This is a marble that I found when I was still in school. It was laying in the school parking lot. I think it is the prettiest marble I have ever seen. It reminds me of the moon with all it's craters. Sometimes it makes me think of a little water bubble. Then there are days when it makes me think of the plant Earth and I am standing here on this one spot. Then you guys are here in different other spots.

I hope to find myself again soon, so that I can go back to smiling genuinely. I still have two more months of summer left and I want to enjoy it as much as I can.

Character Series Meme

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 20:41:25 GMT

A quick meme before I take a shower and make a real entry.

Stolen from everybody!

List the first ten series that come to mind. Your friends will comment with the character from each series that they think you are most like.

1. Disney
2. KEY/Air/Clannad/Kanon/anything else... (lol I couldn't pick one.)
3. Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon
4. Final Fanasty
5. Kingdom Hearts
6. Tenga Toppa Gurren Lagann
7. Princess Tutu
8. K-On!
9. Harry Potter (I just saw the movie earlier this week. It was funny.)
10. ~~Harvest Moon?... if you know it.~~ Ummm... I don't know. Gundam? CLAMP? Uh... Anything Or skip this last one. XD

here I am a rabbit hearted girl...

Fri, 17 Jul 2009 04:54:21 GMT

Stolen from innovade

• Post ten of any pictures currently on your hard drive that you think are self-expressive.
• NO CAPTIONS!!! It must be like we're speaking with images and we have to interpret your visual language just like we have to interpret your words.
• They must ALREADY be on your hard drive - no googling or flickr! They have to have been saved to your folders sometime in the past. They must be something you've saved there because it resonated with you for some reason.
• You do NOT have to answer any questions about any of your pictures if you don't want to.